Thursday, August 20, 2009

Counting Blessings

Recently I have been thinking a lot about the blessings in life;
this week in particular has found me reflecting even more.
There was a terrible tragic accident in the town that I work leaving
two families mourning for their children that had drown in the river.
They are not alone in the mourning process as this has effected me greatly.
My heart grieves with the families; trying to make sense out of this only creates more
questions and anger.
I will pray for these families for strength and peace that only comes from God healing hand.
For myself I will try to focus on my blessings in life.
I love that old time hymn that says "count your blessings name them one by one; count your blessings see what God has done".
My blessings are great and sometimes I need to remind myself of them!
So for today I am counting my blessings.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Purpose in life for some is clear and single-minded—those who feel they must paint, or play music, or teach, or diagnose disease, for example. For others, purpose in life goes through several changes throughout the years—Mother Teresa, for example, felt her purpose was to be a sister in a Loreto convent teaching children of wealthy parents, until she discovered another purpose years later—to serve the “poorest of the poor.” Our purpose is always something that makes more of us. It increases our capacity for bringing goodness, for deepening our love and compassion, for filling empty pockets in our soul. Let these questions help you explore what is waiting to “make more of you.”



What have I been doing when my soul felt full? My most fulfilling times in my life have been when I was not focusing on my needs but the needs of those I am surrounded by; my spirits are lifted as I help others. One of those times that come to mind so clearly was the mission trip that I took to Guatemala with a church group. I always watched the videos and listened intensly as the mission groups retold their stories with much enthusiasim and tears about the trip. From the moment that I got off the plane I realized that my life would be changed forever. Gratitude for all that God has given me and the tugging at my heart as to what I would leave behind. More so, now; my soul feels full just loving and being loved by my family. I enjoy every moment that I get to spend with my grandchildren and with my children, they are the light of my life and I recieve many blessings from them. There are some empty pockets in my soul but I am choosing to focus on the positive parts of my life and God to do the rest.






If there were only three things I could do in my life, what would they be?

1.Love the Lord God with all my heart. He is my salvation and breathes life into me when I am not strong enough to take care of me.
2. Love my children, grandchildren, and parents. providing them with the needs I can provide and prayers for them daily for their lives and their salvation.
3. Help others..





What would leave me empty if I could not do it? Loving my family, my friends and others. Helping all that I can with what they need showing them through love that someone cares. Most likey, if could not help others along their journey I would be lost.

How have others affirmed my reason for being on this earth?
I see it in their eyes and their laughter and sometimes in their tears. A while back I was questioning if I should be working in the job I have. I spoke to the Pastor and he said that he felt that I was being used by God, but still I was tired and weary. I continued to pray and ask for God's guidence, I also pleaded with God to affirm me so that I was sure I was doing what he wanted of me. THe very next day a women that I had counseled about a year before showed up where I work and asked if I had a few minutes. I had her come in and these are the words she spoke to me. "I just felt a leading from God to stop by and just affirm the work you are doing." WOW thats all that went through my mind for months after. God heard my prayers and answered with the same words that I requested to hear! What a wonderful God I serve! I am affirmed in many ways by words from those I have helped and by the words that have been offered on my behalf.





If I were to die tomorrow, what legacy would I want my life to leave behind?
I would love for others to say Patti loved God and that she was a good mother, grandmother and friend. That when she saw a need she tried to help and did it with an open heart never expecting anything in return. I want to live my life this way, I know I fail but I really want to live my life with others in the forfront.




In the silence of my soul, what do I believe God has prepared me to do on this earth?
Hopefully, to be a blessing to others.